Reading this again, I am struck by the depth of self-revelation on Zeke's part.
Alone is not temporary if I won’t change something, if I don’t face my inner-self as disgusting it will be.
That's such a perceptive and bleak thing for him to think. At nineteen, to face always being alone. He knows he'll have a hard battle with his own defensive nature and you can feel him gathering all his inner strength to face it. This should be a joyous time for him but he feels so afraid.
Hell was the days before I talked to you, heaven will always be tomorrow. Somewhere between is the place I am now.
This is so fatalist. You already know that he's seen and suffered more than anyone should at his age. But his self-expression is revealing. The sudden empty room with broken windows is such an eloquent description of loneliness.
It’s me looking at the world in downpour and thunder, choking on my cowardice, pride, arrogance, weakness and distrust.
Oh Zeke, you've got to let it go and realise the sun is shining. The beautiful dawn has come and there's a new friend to teach you how to see it, and see yourself for the good man you are inside. Don't be afraid of love!
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Alone is not temporary if I won’t change something, if I don’t face my inner-self as disgusting it will be.
That's such a perceptive and bleak thing for him to think. At nineteen, to face always being alone. He knows he'll have a hard battle with his own defensive nature and you can feel him gathering all his inner strength to face it. This should be a joyous time for him but he feels so afraid.
Hell was the days before I talked to you, heaven will always be tomorrow. Somewhere between is the place I am now.
This is so fatalist. You already know that he's seen and suffered more than anyone should at his age. But his self-expression is revealing. The sudden empty room with broken windows is such an eloquent description of loneliness.
It’s me looking at the world in downpour and thunder, choking on my cowardice, pride, arrogance, weakness and distrust.
Oh Zeke, you've got to let it go and realise the sun is shining. The beautiful dawn has come and there's a new friend to teach you how to see it, and see yourself for the good man you are inside. Don't be afraid of love!
*hugs tight*