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[julchen11]

Good morning my friends!
Thank you so much for your lovingly words, virtual gifts and support. It was a great help for me the last days. I'll come back to every single one of you, you can be sure.

When we saw him on Monday the last time he looked very peaceful as he would only be sleeping. This gave peace back to my mom, too.
After the memorial service last Tuesday he finally came home on Thursday.

I don't know why but I couldn't even cry so far, maybe it's because God did what was the best for him and for my mom. His one and only love was my mom and before she left him when she visited him the last time - he looked at her, as if he would like to take her picture with him to the place where he is now. A much better place, without pain, without suffering anymore.

My dad's life wasn't easy, not at all. At the age of 9 he lost his father, at the age of 12 he lost his mother. The was no place for him at his sisters but finally he found peace and joy in his family. He always had to work very hard but I never missed anything. I remember when I was 5 years old I got my first little green bicycle - for this he had to work at a brewery for about 4 weekends carrying huge barrels (he told me about this few months ago). I still own this little bike, I even polished it the last days.

What I miss the most is his smile, seeing him sitting in his garden on a huge bench, glasses on his nose and reading, his laughter and his voice. He isn't here anymore but he'll always be in my heart.

I love my dad, always did, always will.

I took last week and  this week off to spend some time at my mom, just to be there for her. That's what I want to do, that's what my dad would like me to do for her.
I'll be back here in a few days - again to all of you, my heartfelt thanks. Without friends like you it wouldn't be possible to be that strong.

Love and hugs to all of you,
Julchen

 

Comments

[earth-dragon.livejournal.com]

Oh, honey... Seems like so much tragedy has hit my flist in the last few weeks. My heart is breaking for everyone. I'm so glad that you're able to find some peace and calmness around you now. I'm definitely thinking about you and your family.

*big warm hugs*

[trianne.livejournal.com]

I'm so very sorry for your loss, love. Gentle hugs for you and your family (((Julchen)))

[cookiefleck.livejournal.com]

Sitting in his garden... a lovely image. I am glad you have many wonderful memories, and were able to spend time with your mom. Good to hear from you. *hugs*

[miss-nightowl.livejournal.com]

Very sorry for your loss :o(

[cologne-chick.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

You know, maybe the tears will come later, when you remember the great times with him.
i still start to cry when I see something on TV that reminds me on my Mom or I hear a song that reminds me on her.
You Dad will always be a part of you and he will always be with you!!!

[ladysunrope.livejournal.com]

I've been away so I've only just found out about your loss and I'm so sorry to hear of it. Yet the words you posted are truly beautiful and if the daughter is a reflection of the father, your dad was a fine man. xxx

[telstar-gold.livejournal.com]

he looked at her, as if he would like to take her picture with him
That's a beautiful image to remember. *hugs you*

[rakshi.livejournal.com]

Have thought of you so often!! I'll be sending every good and healing thought to you and to your family.

Love...

[romeny.livejournal.com]

My heart goes out to you. I lost my father six yrs ago after a surgery and I couldn't cry either but I felt at peace because it was his time and he'd lived a good life. You're fortunate to have good memories of your dad; think how much pleasure you gave him to treasure that little bike he sacrificed for. *hugs*

[addie71.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you have wonderful memories of your dad. I lost my father 12 years ago and I still miss him. But the memories I have of him bring peace to my heart and a smile to my face. I hope your memories do the same.

*hugs you tight*

[babydracky.livejournal.com]

It is good to hear from you my favorite little cookie.
It feels good to have you share your beautiful memories about your dad with us. I can feel how much your dad was loved and I'm pretty sure he knew that himself.
I do believe that a little part of him will always sit in your garden and keep a loving eye on you and your mum.
♥

[belleferret.livejournal.com]

I hope the lovely memories of your dear father will always bring you comfort.

*hugs and much love*

[shirebound]

What gentle, lovely memories.

We love you.

[slightlytookish]

*big, big hugs*

[claudia603.livejournal.com]

♥

*bathes you in love*

[honeyandvinegar.livejournal.com]

He sounds like he was a giving, loving man who wanted the best for his little girl. You were lucky, having a man like that in your life. It's probably why you're so darned sweet. :)

I hope you and your mom can find some solace together and remember all the good times. Love you so, babe. *squish*

[mews1945.livejournal.com]

This is such a beautiful tribute to your dad, my dear. I'm very glad you can find comfort in the knowledge that he is beyond all pain and is at peace. I miss you very much and I'll be glad when you can return to us. Bless you and your mom. *hugs*

[roxy42.livejournal.com]

*wipes away the tears*

That was a beautiful entry, though the cause is so sad.

*bighug*

[peripety]

You and your family have been in my thoughts and prayers as you deal with your loss.

*gentle hugs*

[withywindle01.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad you have such wonderful memories to keep. *hugs you tightly*

[primula-baggins.livejournal.com]

You're a good daughter, sweetheart.

I still have an inner sight of my mother smiling at me. That will be with me the rest of my life, just as your memories of your father will be.

*hugs*

[prisca1960.livejournal.com]

Hugs you tight, Julchen.
What a wonderful post - so full of memories. I'm sure, your dad will always be in your heart - like my grandma is for me. She died 30 years ago, but the memories are always there.

[shelley6441.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetheart, thank you for sharing these beautiful memories of your father with us. My dad died many years ago, and we did not have a close relationship. That makes me sad.

Take care, Julchen.

*hugs tight*

[lijahlover.livejournal.com]

Love and huges to you to hun I'm glad you were there for your mom. *hugs you*

[lily-the-hobbit.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
I'm so sorry for your loss dear. Treasure those memories and he will always be with you.