Cats are snuggling at my feet, purring ... it's just beautiful.
Perfect time for dreaming, writing and translating this and that.
This is for my dear friend
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aliensouldream , thank you for your encouragement, sweetheart! 
Title: Sleeping Fire
Pairing: C/Z
Rating: PG
No beta, all mistakes are mine.
I didn’t see him in days,
in two days to be exactly.
It feels like
weeks.
It’s Sunday morning and
I don’t know what to do.
Maybe I should scrub the floor
To get us a lovely home.
Home…
He’s still living at home.
With his parents.
He’s just 17.
But for me he is “home”.
Sometimes I miss my parents,
When he’s around it’s easier
To accept that they are
Not here…
To hug me..
To take care for me…
I’m not a child anymore
And yet I am.
I want to get hugged
I wish they would care for me
Sometimes I am just a child
And I hate it.
I don’t hate it when Casey is here.
He hugs me when I’m on the phone,
He holds me when I’m feeling down…
He takes care for me
When I’m sad.
He’s more mature than I am.
Was it the beauty that took me
By surprise,
Or was it the mysterious look
In his eyes?
My friends think he’s nothing
To me he’s everything…
It’s hard to hide it…
Day by day…
I know it’s dangerous.
My love – is it love? –
For him is like a wild fire
Waiting to be inflamed…
I can feel it…
The fire begins to burn free
Out of control…
You thought I am here to protect you
With me being the older one.
I can’t protect you from myself…
As long as I don’t dare to look
Deeper and depper into my heart…
You are safe, Casey…
You are safe, Casey…
Only …when you are not here …
but I want …
so very much…
more…
of you…
Be careful, Casey.
I can feel the
Heat of desire
Growing…
More and more…
Be careful, Casey…
I cannot guarantee on anything ...
Have a magical Monday night, f-list!
Love you all,
Julchen
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Date: 2008-07-28 11:48 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2008-07-29 11:41 am (UTC)From:Love and hugs,
Julchen
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Date: 2008-07-29 11:41 am (UTC)From:Thank you, lovey.
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Date: 2008-07-29 03:29 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2008-07-29 11:42 am (UTC)From:*snugglehugs*
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Date: 2008-07-29 04:55 am (UTC)From:And his desire to protect Casey, especially from himself, only shows that Zeke is really in love in a deep way.
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Date: 2008-07-29 11:43 am (UTC)From:Sometimes love is just like that, slowly growing, slowly going...
Love and hugs,
Julchen
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Date: 2008-07-29 05:07 am (UTC)From:The wish to protect Casey und to know that the fire of love is burning more and more ... poor Zeke. But we love him for this, right? And Casey does it, too!
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Date: 2008-07-29 11:45 am (UTC)From:Cool on the surface and soft in his heart.
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Date: 2008-07-29 08:06 am (UTC)From:Oh, Julchen. Everything about this, from the title onward, goes straight to the heart of C/Z.
But for me he is “home”.
I always see Zeke this way, a lost and lonely boy trying to make sense of his world and the word 'home'. It is a powerful image for me that Casey, though seeming slight and vulnerable, should have a heart so big and strong that it is shelter for both of them. And to me Casey is always 17, a magic age to me.
Sometimes I am just a child
And I hate it.
I don’t hate it when Casey is here.
I don't think anyone ever stops feeling this way at some time, and for someone as defensive as Zeke to admit it in his heart is a huge step.
Was it the beauty that took me
By surprise,
Or was it the mysterious look
In his eyes?
Zeke could be fooled by beauty, but Casey's beauty is not all on the surface and grows by stealth. I think the haunting quality of those looks, beautiful and wise, have made Zeke understand there is so much more to him than just beauty.
My love – is it love? –
For him is like a wild fire
Waiting to be inflamed…
Oooh! I chose to see this poem as taking place before their relationship had progressed to intimacy and Zeke is battling with himself over his feelings of desire for the boy who has rescued him.
Be careful, Casey.
I can feel the
Heat of desire
Growing…
*faints* I love the powerful yearning, his warning to Casey. He isn't sure whether he should take this further, maybe he isn't sure what Casey wants, but his desire is growing unstoppable ... *faints again*
This is awesome, Julchen. Touching, perceptive and very sexy. Thank you so much! And thank you for keeping the C/Z flame going for all of us with these gorgeous poems. I feel I get to visit with them most every day through you. I am such a slow writer and fic challenges have slowed me down a little lately but I hope to post more fic soon. I am storing your poems as inspiration! I'm so glad we have Long Hot Summer about to start - a month of non-stop Zeke and Casey!!!
*hugs tight*
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Date: 2008-07-29 11:58 am (UTC)From:It's how I see Zeke, all the time. Cool on the outside, lonely and soft inside. He's strong, very strong, there's no doubt but he just needs someone like Casey. He's younger, he's warmhearted and he takes Zeke like he is. No need for changes, no need to hide his feelings. Zeke slowly allows himself to feel, to show his emotions for Casey.
This fandom really got me (thanks again to honey and mews and YOU, babe) ...
You aren't a slow writer, my dear. Your stories are long and absolutely brilliant.
My little "works" are always short, I couldn't write long stories ... though more than 300 pages are waiting to be translated (From German to English, sorry about the mistakes - but I'm sure you're reading with your heart, I can feel it in your lovely replies).
I'm so looking forward to the Long Hot Summer and all the Zeke and Casey love.
OMG, you are storing my poems??? *is thrilled*
I've printed all your stories, there's a special folder in my kitchen called "ASD + C/Z" and I love it more and more and more.
Thank you soooo very much for everything, lovey.
Love and zillions of hugs right under the sunlight,
Julchen
I'm now on my way to the garden, I think the C/Z muse will join me :-)
Have a grand day!
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Date: 2008-07-29 11:27 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2008-07-29 11:48 am (UTC)From:I wish I could do a little bit more of F/S but the language is more difficult (I'm still struggling with the English basics) but I'm learning. Day by day.
Thank you, love, thank you sooo much!
*hugs tightly*
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Date: 2008-07-29 11:44 am (UTC)From:A true sign of love...this is beautiful.
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Date: 2008-07-29 11:49 am (UTC)From:Your icon is breathtakingly beautiful...
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Date: 2008-08-01 09:34 am (UTC)From:Thank you, sweetie!
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Date: 2008-08-04 10:25 pm (UTC)From:You humble me, Steff...
Thank you!!!! soooooo very much!
You made my night :-)
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