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without you this wouldn't be possible.

Title: Kingdom of Loneliness
Letter 4
Pairing: C/Z
Rating: PG

My dear Zeke!

It's Saturday morning 6 a.m. and I can't sleep. The night was … overwhelming.

I was so afraid to go to the party, because so many people would be there.

People who ignored or treated me so far. Suddenly they talked to me! I was stammering, unable to build a complete sentence and I was so glad you stayed put. One of the guys offered me a glass of whisky when you went to get me a coke. The guy got a bit angry when I said no. He hissed something at me but stopped at once when you showed up. "What's up?" you asked him and he nearly fled. "You're ok, Casey?" Oh yes. I felt more than ok, I felt great.

And you… smiled at me. You could kill (me) with your smile, do you know this? Then you surprised me when you asked me for a dance! I Casey-the-geek-Connor was going to have a dance with The-Tyler-Zeke! One hand around my waist, one hand holding one of mine – they played a love song, not too slow, not too fast – I had to lean on you because my knees were wobbling.

You pulled me closer. I could feel your breath on my neck. My hair stood on end! You made me shiver. Looking over your shoulder Stokely gave me her 'thumbs up' and blew a little kiss to me. They dimmed the light and played a very slow song. My heart skipped a beat when I felt your lips behind my ear … I almost groaned. I put one hand on your chest, lifted my head and got lost… in your eyes. Your eyes … there was something in your eyes I didn't know but it felt … wonderful. Then the song was over and this precious little moment was gone. We've never been that close, I've never been that close with anyone. It felt so good and it felt so … right. You whispered "Let's go outside for a little while" … I decided to go alone first, waiting for you. It didn't last very long until you joined me. I could only but smile (I hope it was a smile and no grin) at you and I felt so… small. It must be your sixth sense to feel my nervousness. Standing behind me you put your arms around me, swaying with me slowly to the music. I felt so safe and important. "Zeke" It was only a low moan and your grip tightened.

Then Stan and Stokes showed up, I wanted to let go but you held me all the more tighter, whispering "Stay"… I felt a bit embarrassed and … proud…happy. Stan and Stokes kept on smiling, Stan giggled and said "finally you made it. 2 cats strolling around an empty milk pot

is hard to bear. Especially when the cats are THAT slow!" This made us laugh. I looked at you and …blushed. We stood there for a while and then I had to go home. Of course you gave me a ride. When we stopped in front of my parents' house …my dad was waiting for me.

'I wish I didn't have to leave ' I told you.. You smiled and squeezed my hands. 'Want to come to me, tomorrow, Casey?' I thought you wouldn't ask', I replied. Some dark deep barrier behind your eyes was replaced by something uncontrolled, something hungry and … wild – disappearing as quickly as it had flared. And I loved it. Then you had to go.

Now laying in my bed, still feeling your arms around me, enchanted by the little kiss behind my ear, listening to your heartbeat when we danced… I miss you, Zeke.

See you tomorrow then,

Casey.

TBC.

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OMG, Julchen, this is amazing. The little kiss behind the ear, the tightening of the arms when Zeke whispered "Stay"...I'm now a melted pile of goo on the floor.

God, I can't tell you how nervous I was. I'm glad it isn't too sloppy!
Thanks a lot, love!
*hugs you very close*

Ah guh, that was the sweetest thing! I think my teeth are rotting! *pinches*

Awwwww, you made me smile, sweetie! Thank you for your lovingly words.
*snuggles closer*

*knocks quietly & peeps head around door*

Excuse me for entering your C/Z world for a moment, but I just wanted to wish you all the very best for 2009! May the New Year bring you everything your heart desires :-)

*hugs*

~Lyra

Hello my dear! I'm so glad to see you here. Thanks a lot for your lovely words and all the very best to you, too!
*hugs back tight*

Awwwwwwwwwwwww!!!
This is just so sweet!!!
How can you always write so sweetly? OO
*Keep going!
*HUGS*

You put a huuuuuge smile onto my face, lovey! I'm glad you like it!
*hugs you tight*

^_______________^
Love to see you smiling!:)

Awwww, you're a darling!

Love your letter. *squishes*

Thank you, sweetie!
Love you, too! *hugs you tight*

Ohh... this is such a lovely 'recanting' of events. Casey's so GONE, and who could blame him? Lovely series, honey!!

Awwww, thank you so much, little sunshine! you always make me smile!

Mmmmm so beautiful hun!

Rose Glitter Pictures

Thank you sooo much, Amy.
God, the glittering rose is gorgeous!

Love you,
Julchen

*happy sigh*

This is just adorable. Thank you for sharing this tender (and memorable!) moment with us!

*hugs*

YAY! You like it!!! Thank you soooo much for your lovely words, sweetie!
*hugs back tight and twirls you around*

** sigh **
This is so sweet - I love the boys!

They are so cute together, right? I'm glad you like them :-))
Thank you, sweetie!

Wheeee, it's up!!!!

I just love the image of them having the courage to dance like that in the open. It's so daring and provocative. And I love that Stan and Stokes are championing their romance. It feels so good that they have friends there who understand and are happy for them. I was struck again by this.

Some dark deep barrier behind your eyes was replaced by something uncontrolled, something hungry and … wild – disappearing as quickly as it had flared.

Whoa. Really captures the potency of that look, and how devastating it is to Casey.

Thanks for the sweet dreams, Julchen! :-)

You know how much your words mean to me, do you? It's this kind of romance.
The luck is a butterfly. Finally Zeke sat down and it established on his shoulder (for a little while).
Thank you for your magical smile, love!

Sleep sweet, have the nicest of dreams!

Love and hugs,
Julchen