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Happy Weekend!
Good morning, afternoon, evening f-list!
Isn't it a wonderful day, today ? I flipped through my garden books and I ordered some roses today.
The one above is called "strawberry swirl" and it was a MUST!
Now I have to scrub the floor a bit and the laundry is waiting (as usual it can wait!) ...
So I think I'll spend some time with reading :-)) The best you can do on a rainy afternoon like that.
See you later again, dears.
Enjoy this beautiful day!
Love and hugs,
Julchen
This is for my dear
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mews1945 just because ... I hope you'll enjoy. Thanks for
aliensouldream for looking over it. Title: CHANGES - Part 2: Revelation
Pairing: C/Z
Rating: PG
I can’t get Casey out of my head. No matter how much or how long I work – he’s always there. I even talked to myself as if I’d be talking to him. Asking questions – answering by myself. Crazy. Crazy it’s Casey
I never knew stargazing could be so inspiring – and I do this a lot these nights. It’s funny that I didn’t remember that because as child I enjoyed looking out my window and the vast blue above. ‘What are you looking at?’ my grandma always asked. It never felt as if I could have given a definitive answer, so I always replied, ‘Everything and nothing.’ The sky is another world with twinkling friends smiling back at me and a silver moon that makes my heart swell with a feeling I still cannot explain. This childhood love has returned and I’ve taken up this favorite pastime hobby-style learning more about maps and constellations. I’ve planned to go out these last two nights but there was too much cloud cover, so hopefully I’ll have better luck over the weekend.
Before I went to bed tonight I stumbled over a website about the meaning of kisses. Should I … ? Yes, I should.
Kiss on the cheeks – we’re friends – can cope with it!
Kiss on the hand – I adore you… Fuck!
Kiss on the shoulder – I want you… Doublefuck!
Come on Zeke, be sure Casey doesn’t know any of this. He just cared for me.
Since this evening we’re talking a lot more about … personal stuff, Aaron and I. He’s a wise man and I’m looking forward to the evening talks with pipe and beer. He got me my own pipe as my birthday gift – he’s the only one who knows about this day. It’s beautiful, so smoothly curved with beautiful wood carving and my name on it. Makes me feel like Huckleberry Finn sometimes.
I learned a lot about my grandmother, what she liked, what she did, how she was… She loved gardening, the harder the better. He handed me one of her favorite books “The meaning of Roses” and there’s a quote I read over and over again. “He who would have beautiful roses in his garden must have beautiful roses in his heart. He must love them well and always. He must have not only the glowing admiration, the enthusiasm, and the passion, but the tenderness, the thoughtfulness, the reverence, the watchfulness of love. “
It sounds so like my grandma. When I flipped through the book, looking at the gorgeous photographs (I’m sure Casey would love them), looking at her remarks at several sides, tips and tricks - it was very painful at first, almost unbearable - now I want to know everything. Aaron handed me some letters they wrote to each other. They are still closed. I can’t bring myself to reading them alone…
In his house there’s a sign above the front door “Life is what’s coming – not what was.”
Soo true…
Last week, na, what do I say, every day we’re talking about Casey. I don’t know why but Aaron makes me want to talk about Casey – almost non-stop.
We’re sitting – as usual – at his porch, the sun goes down, it’s still warm and looking around I feel very content in what we’ve done this evening. Out of the blue he asks me “Do you like him, Zeke? “
Could be, but – Jesus Christ – he should have warned me about asking me this so… directly !
Hmmm. What I’ve learned the last weeks … I’m not into girls. Aaron made me chatter like a goose, thinking aloud I had to admit – no, no girls! He felt embarrassed when I told him about how many there were just for sex and fun. Nothing more. To ease the carnal desire. He even blushed a little, ok, he’s allowed to blush – he’s old. I’m sure in his youth and best years nobody would have been that bold talking about sex.
“So no girls anymore, boy?”
I’m just nodding… It’s not that I don’t like them – oh no – but all Jenny’s, Angie’s, Lucie’s,
“I don’t know why – but I can’t imagine being together with a girl anymore, it’s weird, isn’t it? “
“So it’s Casey then?”
“Yes, I think I could like him… Am I gay, Aaron? ”
Aaron chuckled first then he was bursting with laughter.
“Zeke-boy! I think you still know the answer.
I’m old and not blind. You should see your eyes when you’re talking about him. Your eyes are shining like 1000 Volt, even the sun could hide behind those beaming eyes. But it’s time talking to Casey, don’t you think?”
No.
“Yes…”
No!
“Yes, I think so…”
Can’t sleep. Aaron is right. I will talk to him… because …I have to and I want to. Tomorrow. Or the day after tomorrow.
No. Tomorrow. It’s a deal then!
God, what the heck could I say … Can’t tell him straight that I like him.
There. I said it. If only to myself. And I don’t know this boy… guy… man… Not at all.
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And well, I'm glad that Zeke has Aaron to talk some sense into him! :)
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*hugs you gently*
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Sometimes it would be great having someone like Aaron, right ?
Thank you for your lovely word, my dear.
Have a wonderful day!
Love and hugs,
Julchen
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That is such a beautiful rose.
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I love this rose, too :-))
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Yes! :D
Wow. I think this is a bit different from your other writing. Sometimes I thought I was reading your journal and not a fic. It's so natural!
*smooches*
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We can't leave Zeke alone here, right? I'm sure Aaron is a wise man and Zeke's glad to get to know him better and better.
Thank you for your lovely words, dear heart. I'm glad you love it! More than glad!
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I'm glad you don't do the housework first. Better take it all a bit more slowly! But I think I've said that to you already ... only about ten times or so? ;P
Have a great weekend!
*hugs tight*
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I'll take it slow, don't worry. Promised!
Have a great weekend yourself, Hina!
*hugs back more tight*
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And this Kiss on the cheeks – we’re friends – can cope with it! Kiss on the hand – I adore you… Fuck! Kiss on the shoulder – I want you… Doublefuck! makes me giggle!
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*snugglehugs*
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Part 3 is up, honey! http://julchen11.livejournal.com/167124.html#cutid1
Love you, dear!
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I loved this little bit, I don’t know why but Aaron makes me want to talk about Casey – almost non-stop Well, we know why don't we. I would guess we've all been there at one time or another. lol
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*clings to you*
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I just realised it.
Because I wanted so bad to read all of this ÖÖ
I like Aaron's words Zeke definitely needed to hear them^^
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I'm glad there's someone Zeke wants to talk to.
*hugs you very tight*
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Thank you! This was fun to read!
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LOL! No wonder Zeke is going mad, trying to decipher the meaning of these kisses, and the worse is he can't even remember them! And I did love the Huckleberry Finn reference - so apt for Zeke somehow!
I like the two of them getting closer, chatting on the porch. Aaron is very good at getting Zeke to open up and look at things in a different way. The memories of his grandma, someone he loved, are wakening him up emotionally. Will he reveal his feeling to Casey tomorrow? Nice cliffhanger to end on!
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Thanks a lot, sweetie!
*smooches*