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Happy birthday my dear friend !
May this special day be full of love, sunshine, joy and people you love and you like to kiss and to hug you!!!
I wish you all the very best!
Here's a little something for you, I hope you'll enjoy.
No beta, all mistakes are mine and mine alone :-))
Title: Questions and answers
Pairing: Zeke/Casey
Rating: PG
You are so restless tonight, nervous… like something’s bothering you.
You’re brooding over something.
“What’s up with you, Casey?”
You’re hesitating, keeping quiet for a while.
“There are so many questions I’d like to get the answer, Zeke.
How do you know that your love is true and that you are not just fooling yourself? How do you know that you are not merely infatuated with me?
How do you know that this is a relationship that has lasting power?
Where will we be in a month, in a year?
Do you really want to be with me? Or is it just because of we had to go through?
That you only feel responsible for me?
Am I worth your … love?”
“Casey, Casey. Stop this.”
Taking you in my arms I don’t have to think about the answers to your questions.
“Do not undermine your worth by comparing yourself with others,
It is because we are different that each of us is special.”
Snuggling closer you murmur with a smile: “Said who?”
“You taught me this, Casey. In so many ways.
Day by day.”
“How, Zeke?”
It isn’t easy for me talking about emotions and feelings but I’ll give it a try.
Stroking your hair I go on.
“You told me once
‘Do not dismiss your dreams.
To be without dreams is to be without hope;
To be without hope is to be without purpose.’
There’s so much truth in it.
I started dreaming again – no, that’s not it. I allowed myself to dream. I don’t run through my life so fast that I forget not only where I’ve have been, but also where I’m going. Life is no longer a race, but a journey to be savoured each step of the way.
I really enjoy being with you, every single hour, every single minute, every thousandth second.
There are so many little things when you show me how much I mean to you.
You’re there to talk and to listen,
You stand beside me, you walk beside me not matter what.
I see with you everything is possible.
I have opened my inner self to you,
and you have opened your inner self to me as well.
We share happiness, smiles, secrets, laughs, sorrow, pain and tears –
this means trust, Casey.
I see in your eyes your love for me –
I can feel it in my heart that my love for you
is everlasting. I wouldn’t say it if I wouldn’t mean it.
We both know what we want –
We both know what we need.
Isn’t it a wonderful gift to know that we will grow old slowly together and never be apart no matter where we are, who we are or what we are?”
Sighing deeply, playing with my fingers your voice is cracked when you say:
“Thank you, Zeke.”
This moves me. Deeply. I can’t but whisper against your lips:
“If one day you want to run away don’t be afraid to call me –
I don’t promise to ask you to stop but I can run with you.
I will follow the rainbow until the end.”
Love and hugs,
Julchen
