Happy Birthday Shelley6441!!!

I know I'm too late, sweetie! But I won't miss to wish you a very happy (belated) birthday!
Thank you for being my friend. I hope you had an incredibly wonderful day with all the things you love and you like.

This little something is for you, I hope you'll like it.

Title: Liar
Character: Casey (Zeke implied)
Rating: PG

Wherever I close my eyes I see you…

I’m amazed by

the inner peace you give me. 

There are no words to explain.

If I want something special 

I only have to watch…

and see…

and realize…

that there IS something special

in the eyes …

eyes expressing

your soul.

Mine, too.

‘Lie still’, I whisper …

cuddling up at my favorite place …

A place with flaws,

strangeness

and abnomalities…

You’ve showed me 

how to accept this

and you

put my mind at ease

inside  of your hugs 

where it's warm and loving.

That’s all I need… at the moment.

Air
Fire
Water
Earth…

Even in the darkness of the night

I can vividly see 

all this

in your face …

in your sleepy smile.

That’s all I need, isn’t it?

Am I content?

Yes.

And no.

I’m a liar. 

Perfect in lying to myself

most of all,

deceiving myself.

Because …

I want to be much

more

than friends with you.

Let me be your needs,

let me be your fantasies.

I want it to be … something.

If you only would know … 

How much

I want

You…Zeke.

Love and huuuuuge tight hugs,
Julchen

long overdue update

Hello and good morrrrrrrning!!!

I am back! Finally. I can't tell you how much I missed you all!
So what happened here?
It seems Wolfgang will get a new job next month! YAY! That means I'll cancel job no. 3! YAY!
The docs made a diagnosis by his mother: breast cancer. Meanwhile she had a surgery and it was successful. But she has to go to exposure 33 times - that means I have to take care of Wolfgang's father who had again several strokes in spring and sometimes he's desorientated, he doesn't know whether time nor days.
My mom was ill last month and I had to take care of her and my grandma. Now both are feeling better and my sister Karin take care of them at daytime, I only have to come over at evenings for a few hours.

I for myself am feeling good. Really good.
Job runs properly, now I'm on vacation (I still can't believe it's raining since I'm at home for about 10 days now).
I cleaned and mopped the house (both households, Wolf's moms and mine), tended the garden and now I am ready!
Ready to catch up with my f-list (I have to go back to November 2009, incredible, isn't it?)! Wow, you guys have been sooooo busy! Good for me :-)

Now I'm off for the paper round (1hour too late) and that's a great feeling. It's dark and foggy, a little bit cold - but hey, it smells like fall! Wonderful! 2 weeks of summer with heat is enough *g*

See you all, babes! It may take some time to be up to date but I'll do my very best.

Love you,
Julchen

Here's a little piece of my favorite place in the garden - as you see coffee cup, sketch book - all ready for me :-)