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Title: Deal
Pairing: Zeke/Casey (implied)
Rating: PG
For my dear friend
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romeny just because ... „Deal“
I’m at a loss.
Absolutely confused.
It didn’t start
inconspicuous.
It didn’t start
sneaky.
We never talked.
besides at school…
about school…
and even then
only few words.
Phrases.
Insignificant.
How could this happen?
It was on Monday.
In a split second
I lost my mind.
You entered the classroom
when I looked up
this time
you took my breath away.
You were moving
in slow motion…
at least
your swaying walk
effected on me
like this.
Lost in thoughts
with a tiny little smile
on your lips
you lifted your head
and looked
straight in my eyes.
Right at this moment
I wanted to die.
Murderer.
Baam!
It felt like a huge
iron hammer
hit my head.
I know exactly what I was
thinking then
“Goodness! Beauty!”
And I blushed.
Me.
The
Sat there with reddened
cheeks
and a vacuum in my brain…
a vacuum filled with
You.
Casey.
Girls are pretty!
Aren’t they?
I like girls!
Had lots of them!
There were…
Why can’ I remember
a single name?
There’s no way out!
Why?
Why me?
Why him?
Why … whatever?
I’m acting like a
TEENAGER!
Hey!
I AM a teenager.
Get to your senses Zeke.
Calm down.
Think!
You’re my schoolmate
and my …
schoolmate.
What the heck shall
I do now?
I feel sick.
Because of the boy?
No.
Because of me.
And my burning heart.
Daydreams dripping in a
world of confusion.
I have to admit:
I have a soft spot for boys.
Liar.
I have a soft spot for one boy.
For Casey.
I should make the best of it.
I should ignore you
(what an unbearable thought)
…but I won’t let you out of sight
I won’t talk to you … but
how to tell you what I feel?
Go to bed, Zeke Tyler.
And die.
If it would be that easy …
It would be a pity,
wouldn’t it?
Make a list.
A wish list.
A what-do-I-want-from-Casey-list.
No.
I won’t do the last list.
I already know what I want.
But I won’t say it.
I won’t think it.
I won’t think about Casey.
Don’t think about Casey.
Casey.
Casey.
Casey.
Casey.
Fuck.
You.
Could be nice…
I’m a genius people say, right?
There must be a proper explanation.
Though I doubt I’d find anything
about this crap
at Wikipedia.
Casey.
C like crazy craving for
A like absorbed
S like sex
E like emotion
Y like You.
Deal.
I’ll make a deal.
with myself.
I’ll keep it secret.
Yes.
Once and forever.
Deal.
Deal with it Zeke –
you have a crush
On this guy.
Deal.
He’s like a drug.
My drug.
Won’t get rid of him.
Never.
Addicted to drugs…
Addicted to
Casey.
DEAL. WITH. IT!
For this I’d need
courage.
For the first time in my life
I like to be a coward.
Liar.
DEAL with the truth.
DEAL with Casey.
Weak-willed
Helpless
Unconscious
Incapable of resisting
HIM.
DEAL.
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Date: 2010-05-14 08:52 pm (UTC)From:And I blushed.
Me.
The Tyler.
Sat there with reddened
cheeks
and a vacuum in my brain…
Loved it. Still smiling.
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Date: 2010-05-14 08:58 pm (UTC)From:I'm so glad you liked it, addie!
*snugglehugs*
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Date: 2010-05-14 08:54 pm (UTC)From:And this: I’m acting like a TEENAGER! Hey! I AM a teenager. Yes, that's it - he has always to be so strong and tough, living his life by his own ... but finally he still is just a teenage boy. He has every right to be!
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Date: 2010-05-14 09:00 pm (UTC)From:"It's about time to learn, Zeke..."
I couldn't have said it better :-))
Thank you, sweetiepie!
*twirls you around*
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Date: 2010-05-14 09:37 pm (UTC)From:It was on Monday. In a split second I lost my mind. You entered the classroom
That's the way love is, it sneaks up on us, even the great Zekester. For the first time, he's realizing he needs, not wants someone.
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Date: 2010-05-17 10:21 am (UTC)From:Thanks you soooo much, sweetie!
You said it - even the great Zekester can't resist love!
*twirls you around*
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Date: 2010-05-14 11:04 pm (UTC)From:Aren’t they?
I like girls!
Had lots of them!
*pat-pats Zeke's hair* Of course, honey. Of course.
Riiiight. LOL. Whatta teenager he is!! This was funz, babe!
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Date: 2010-05-17 10:21 am (UTC)From:*dances with you through the day*
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Date: 2010-05-14 11:14 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2010-05-17 10:22 am (UTC)From:Thank you, Julia!
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Date: 2010-05-15 12:30 am (UTC)From:You.
Could be nice…
This whole poem, of course, is totally frickin genius. The Wikipedia comment had me LMFAOing like crazy. Perfect teen stream of consciousness. I love the way he can't style Casey as his friend. Too much mystery and tension.
I won’t think about Casey.
Don’t think about Casey.
Casey.
Casey.
Casey.
Casey.
Yep, just a typical day in Zeke's brain. You rock for channelling him to a T.
*insane huggingness*
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Date: 2010-05-17 10:24 am (UTC)From:As you said - just a typical Zasey-Day :-))
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Date: 2010-05-17 10:26 am (UTC)From:*HUUUUUUUUUUUGE HUGS*