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Who would I be without my dreams ? Without my friends ?
A poor little thing .
Why do I ask this
Looking at the people around me – in Real Life – I often ask myself “am I weird?”
Talking about my colleagues at work. Nice people. Without dreams and huge “problems”.
Examples? Here –
Do my shoes fit very well with my necklace ? Huge problems indeed.
When shall I go to the hairdresser ? Tomorrow or eventually today? Yes – you should think about this.
My car is so dirty… heaven, then go for a wash.
I have no money! (Major problem) – Ok – who can’t use a bit more of it? Money isn’t the most important THING in MY life.
My dear colleagues took my sketchbook – of course without permission (I left it on my desk) – including all the poems I collected over many many years. This wouldn’t have been the problem – but … they commented them. Most of them. Left marks in my book.
“Crap, silly, shit” – and so on and THIS made me a bit angry and … sad. They call ME crazy.One of them called me a hopeless dreamer. I’ll take this as a compliment. And this made me smile.
We had a little discussion about this and that – no, no – I don’t talk to them that much, especially about my private life.
One of the ladies asked me “what the hell are you doing when you’re at home”
“Meeting friends”
“at home?
Didn’t she ask me what I’m doing when I’m at home ?
Be polite Julchen, answer “of course. I talk to my friends at home”
“They are visiting you?”
“Daily.”
The has to think about this for a few minutes.
“How can this be? You are meeting our friends daily?”
“Yes. My online-friends..”
You should have seen the gazes … Whether I have 3 heads nor is my skin green…
“You are weird. How can one be your friend you don’t know and I am sure they don’t know you.”
“My friends know me very well – more than anyone else here…”
Now they became curious and asked me – senseriously – to tell them about MY dreams and desires. First I have to say – their world is ending at the innerside of their frontdoors.
How crazy would I be to tell THESE people my dreams and my secret desires ?
The conversation ended as one of the ladies asked me – out of the blue – “you are vegetarian, aren’t you?
“Yes”
“So, you don’t eat meat?”
“I don’t”
“And what about vegetables?” – how to answer this to stay polite
“I love vegetables”
“But you can eat sausages …”
“Show me the tree where I can pick them off …”
And now the answer, it’s the truth “but you can go to the butcher” – I think I needn’t say anymore.
And they call me weird. Crazy. Silly.
One of my sisters – she’s married the second time, has 4 wonderful children, a wonderful house – shocked me a few minutes before. She said – she repeated it 3 times – when you have a perfect life, you don’t need friends.
I didn’t know how to react on this. And I still don’t know what to say.
I for myself wouldn’t be complete without my friends.
My friends are very important to me, always were and always will be. I’m glad to have friends like you around me.
You always brighten my days and my nights. I’m often sitting here – infront of my computer – crying, laughing, thinking, smiling, staring … - I know you know all of it – every single post – whether it’s a picture, a poem, a ficlet, a little note - is the air I need to breath .
I.AM.NOT.ALONE.
Without you I would be very lonely and my life would be very poor.
I love the way I’m living, I wouldn’t change a single thing.
They can call me weird. I know I’m not (not always) .
They call me crazy? Ok – I love to be that kind of crazy.
Thank you again for being here for me and I hope you'll all have a wonderful day!
Julchen (feels much better now)
A poor little thing .
Why do I ask this
Looking at the people around me – in Real Life – I often ask myself “am I weird?”
Talking about my colleagues at work. Nice people. Without dreams and huge “problems”.
Examples? Here –
Do my shoes fit very well with my necklace ? Huge problems indeed.
When shall I go to the hairdresser ? Tomorrow or eventually today? Yes – you should think about this.
My car is so dirty… heaven, then go for a wash.
I have no money! (Major problem) – Ok – who can’t use a bit more of it? Money isn’t the most important THING in MY life.
My dear colleagues took my sketchbook – of course without permission (I left it on my desk) – including all the poems I collected over many many years. This wouldn’t have been the problem – but … they commented them. Most of them. Left marks in my book.
“Crap, silly, shit” – and so on and THIS made me a bit angry and … sad. They call ME crazy.One of them called me a hopeless dreamer. I’ll take this as a compliment. And this made me smile.
We had a little discussion about this and that – no, no – I don’t talk to them that much, especially about my private life.
One of the ladies asked me “what the hell are you doing when you’re at home”
“Meeting friends”
“at home?
Didn’t she ask me what I’m doing when I’m at home ?
Be polite Julchen, answer “of course. I talk to my friends at home”
“They are visiting you?”
“Daily.”
The has to think about this for a few minutes.
“How can this be? You are meeting our friends daily?”
“Yes. My online-friends..”
You should have seen the gazes … Whether I have 3 heads nor is my skin green…
“You are weird. How can one be your friend you don’t know and I am sure they don’t know you.”
“My friends know me very well – more than anyone else here…”
Now they became curious and asked me – senseriously – to tell them about MY dreams and desires. First I have to say – their world is ending at the innerside of their frontdoors.
How crazy would I be to tell THESE people my dreams and my secret desires ?
The conversation ended as one of the ladies asked me – out of the blue – “you are vegetarian, aren’t you?
“Yes”
“So, you don’t eat meat?”
“I don’t”
“And what about vegetables?” – how to answer this to stay polite
“I love vegetables”
“But you can eat sausages …”
“Show me the tree where I can pick them off …”
And now the answer, it’s the truth “but you can go to the butcher” – I think I needn’t say anymore.
And they call me weird. Crazy. Silly.
One of my sisters – she’s married the second time, has 4 wonderful children, a wonderful house – shocked me a few minutes before. She said – she repeated it 3 times – when you have a perfect life, you don’t need friends.
I didn’t know how to react on this. And I still don’t know what to say.
I for myself wouldn’t be complete without my friends.
My friends are very important to me, always were and always will be. I’m glad to have friends like you around me.
You always brighten my days and my nights. I’m often sitting here – infront of my computer – crying, laughing, thinking, smiling, staring … - I know you know all of it – every single post – whether it’s a picture, a poem, a ficlet, a little note - is the air I need to breath .
I.AM.NOT.ALONE.
Without you I would be very lonely and my life would be very poor.
I love the way I’m living, I wouldn’t change a single thing.
They can call me weird. I know I’m not (not always) .
They call me crazy? Ok – I love to be that kind of crazy.
Thank you again for being here for me and I hope you'll all have a wonderful day!
Julchen (feels much better now)
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Date: 2006-02-20 09:27 am (UTC)From:Funny. I remember a friend from the Tolkien Society I join here once told us this story. Someone suggested her to get a boyfriend soon so she could get rid of us. Oh?
*hugs you tightly*
I won't care what they say out there. I even tell lots about all my online friends, my betas, and how I can freely tell my problems with you all, with my family. Gratefully, they understand and are even happy for me.
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Date: 2006-02-20 09:40 am (UTC)From:no subject
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Date: 2006-02-20 10:13 am (UTC)From:I feel the same way about my online friends. It's stupid for people to think that just because you've never met a person face to face you don't know them and they're not your friend.
I think it's disgraceful that they took your book and wrote nasty comments in it. I think the poems you share are beautiful and I feel sorry for those people that they are so small-minded they can't see it too.
I love having hopeless dreamers as my friends, it makes me know I'm not the only one! :)
*big hugs*
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Date: 2006-02-20 10:18 am (UTC)From:Thank you love -just what I feel ... Thank you for everything!! *hugs you back very tight*
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Date: 2006-02-20 10:34 am (UTC)From:Ich verstehe Menschen nicht, die so etwas behaupten. Das müssen entweder sehr einsame Menschen sein, oder solche die glauben, mit Geld ließe sich alles kaufen.
Ich bin da wie du. Ohne meine Freunde kann ich nicht leben. Sie sind das Wichtigste für mich.
Ach ja.. und ein hoffnungloser Träumer zu sein, ist wohl das Schönste, was es auf dieser Welt gibt. Bei all dem Stress im Leben hast du deinen Kollegen mit deiner Verrücktheit zumindest voraus, dass du dich wegträumen und dich so erholen kannst.
Weißt du, was ich immer sage, wenn wer behauptet, ich wäre verrückt? "Ja, und ich bin stolz drauf!" oder "Ja, und zwar aus Leidenschaft!"
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Date: 2006-02-20 12:23 pm (UTC)From:Ich BIN stolz darauf ein Träumer zu sein, sehr sogar. *ich umarm dich* und freue mich, dass du meine Freundin bist :-)
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Date: 2006-02-20 11:38 am (UTC)From:is it possible that she never had friends? That she has no time for friends because she has to look after her family?
I can't believe anyone said anything like that. My life was nothing without my friends, no matter if they are RL friends or online friends. my life would be boring and had no reason!
And your colleagues...I don't know what to say. I would be more than angry if they took my book. And how can they comment your poems? I wish I could come over and kiss their asses! This made me so angry :-/
Don't listen to such cursorily women!!!
And beside that, it is good to be crazy. I love to be crazy. That makes us special!!!!
*hugs you tight*
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Date: 2006-02-20 12:09 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-02-20 12:25 pm (UTC)From:I couldn't have said it better. And it is true - she never had friends because she didn't want to have friends. Unbelievable. Unbearable for me.
Oh yes the kind colleagues - nice little ladies ... I shouldn't take care about them.
Thank YOU for being my friend *hugs you back*
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Date: 2006-02-20 11:46 am (UTC)From:When you told me this morning about this I was so shocked! But what could you do against them? Nothing! You just can keep your stuff secret, be quiet and let them do their things and hope they let you alone.
*big hugses*
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Date: 2006-02-20 12:27 pm (UTC)From:Thank you dearie for your lovely words and for always being here for me. *hugs you back very tight*
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Date: 2006-02-20 11:50 am (UTC)From:I enjoy the company of my on-line friends, just as much as my RL friends. On the other hand, I don't talk a lot about my time on-line to my coworkers and friends because they don't all understand.
But I'm very glad for my friendslist!
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Date: 2006-02-20 12:28 pm (UTC)From:I'm glad for my friendslist too. Thank you for for lovely words my dear. *hugs*
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Date: 2006-02-20 07:38 pm (UTC)From:(((HUGS))))
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Date: 2006-02-20 10:07 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-02-20 10:45 pm (UTC)From:and I've found many wonderful friends.
And to me they've become just as dear as RL friends-
not a day goes by without me blessing the fact
they're there.
So, if you're crazy, so am I... and it's just the
kind of crazy I love.
Now your collegues- insensitive bunch! It must be
hard to ignore them, but really, the way they're
behaving towards you doesn't mean you're odd-
they are, and not just odd, but extremely unpleasant
and childish as wel..
Take heart, darling!!
*lots of soothing hugs*
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Date: 2006-02-20 11:27 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-02-21 04:05 am (UTC)From:Don't ever worry about being different.
{{hugs}}
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Date: 2006-02-21 06:28 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-02-21 06:26 pm (UTC)From:**wink**
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Date: 2006-02-21 09:49 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-02-21 10:28 pm (UTC)From:Here is a link to the trailer. There is a very funny scene when Jonathan explains that he is a vegetarian. :)
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Date: 2006-02-21 10:57 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-05-17 09:43 pm (UTC)From:People around don't understand (at least, most of them don't). One friend of mine (my best friend here in Rome, I've been knowing her since 1982) always says we are special, because we have a sort of "third eye". I'm sure you have it, too.
Other people who don't have it, will never understand. They just think we are crazy. And you know what, I'm so glad to be crazy in this way!
And LJ friends are REAL friends. This is a lovely community, I'm so happy I joined.
*Hugs you tight, hon, you know we understand each other without words!*
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Date: 2006-05-17 09:53 pm (UTC)From:I love your best friend, I couldn't have said it better.
And yes, I am crazy and I love it.
"we understand each other without words!"
absolutely. *smooches*
You are still 'walking' the little path through my LJ, that's amazing.
Thakn you love, thank you my friend!
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Date: 2006-05-17 10:00 pm (UTC)From:It's a pleasure, dearest, I like to do this and I'd like to do this same thing with the LJ's of all my friends. Little by little I'm sure I can do it!
Now it's time for me to go to bed (I have to wake up early tomorrow, for medical checks about my lung. I've booked a visit for next week, but I think everything is OK).
Have a very special night, with the stars and the moon and your lovely cats around. I'll be sleeping, but a piece of my heart is always with you.
Love
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Date: 2006-05-17 10:08 pm (UTC)From:Sleep sweet love, nice hobbit dreams. I'll always keep you in my heart and in my thoughts.
Good night! Gute Nacht! Buena notte!