There and back again

[julchen11]

 How was your day f-list? Mine was great! I mopped the floor, cleaned the bathroom, combed my cats and that was it! Time for reading, time for writing, time for dreaming. It couldn't have been better and I'm not finished, LOL. 



Title: Alive
Pairing: C/Z
Rating: G

 

Being held by him,

listening to his heartbeat,

the centre of his being

makes me feel …

real…

I’m deeply moved.

My Casey is holding…

his Zeke.

Me.

I  love him without words
Because I love him
I don’t even have to say that either....

 

Placing  my  hand in the palm of his

I feel the pulse of his open heart.

I still have the same fears,

Hopes, dreams…

Now I have someone I can

Share this all.

Times are over

when my soul was shattered,

Times are over

when I hungered

but no one cared.

 

His touch is light

when I grow weak,

when he speaks

his voice is quiet…

“It’s the scar of your soul

trying to express your heart,

Zeke…”

 

His kiss …

soft and slow…

exploring…

makes my heart

explode.

I’m crawling into his

skin, into his soul…

into his life.

He did this to me a long time ago.

 

Another time the silver beams

of the moon reflect his beauty.

 

He wants me …

Completely me..

Only me…

I feel … alive.

Far too long I’ve been waiting for those moments

to feel again…

Now

I got my life back.

 

For the first time

I can tell him …

“I love you so much, Casey…”

This is for my wonderful f-list.
Thanks to all of you for your encouragement. Without friends like you I wouldn't post a single word. 

Love you all, good-night darlings!
Julchen

Comments

[mews1945.livejournal.com]

Times are over
when I hungered
but no one cared.

Oh, you made me cry because I'm so happy for Zeke, that he's finally loved, and he can say it to Casey too.

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

You made my happy, Julia! Thank you soooo very much!

[lijahlover.livejournal.com]

I couldnt stand it if you never posted a single word my life would be empty and I really mean that. good-night!

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

You're a darling! Thank you, Amy!
Love and hugs,
Julchen

[claudia603.livejournal.com]

Is that your dear little kitty??? How precious! Good night!

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

No, it's no one of my cats, though my Tommy looked like that :-)
Have a nice day, sweetie!

[slipperieslope.livejournal.com]

Ah, Julchen this was wonderful...

"Times are over

when I hungered

but no one cared"

I am so glad you are my friend.

((hugs))

Bee

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Awww, my sweet Bee! I'm very blessed to know you and so happy you like it :-)

*hugs back tight*

[addie71.livejournal.com]

My Casey is holding…
his Zeke.
Me.

I love how you bare Zeke's soul.

Combing kitties; sounds so relaxing.

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Thank you, darling. I'm so glad, so very glad you like it
*squeezes you*

Combing kitties CAN be relaxing but exhausting, too, especially when one of the cats hates it, LOL.

[prisca1960.livejournal.com]

Good morning, Julchen! I only hope, today it won't be as hot as the last days.

Times are over
when I hungered
but no one cared.

;) Seems that much of us love to quote this!

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Good evening, Prisca! Today we had rain, thunder, lightning, rain and finally sunshine :-)

"Seems that much of us love to quote this" ... thank you, my dear. So it seems it isn't that bad *smiiiiiiles*

[aprilkat.livejournal.com]

I’m crawling into his
skin, into his soul…
into his life.

Wow, that's intense! Such a lovely piece.

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Thank you, lovey. You can't imagine how encouraging your words are ...

Love you,
Julchen

[summershobbit.livejournal.com]

Beautiful my dear. You really have incredible words. Hugs!

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Thank you soooo much, summer. Your lovely words make me simply happy!
*hugs tight back at you*

[aliensouldream.livejournal.com]

My Casey is holding…
his Zeke.

*thud* So simple and strong and emotional.

Now we see that beautiful embrace from the other side, and how deeply Zeke feels he's come home.

I love him without words
Because I love him
I don’t even have to say that either....

I love the complete trust they've reached, where everything is understood beyond the level of words.

I still have the same fears,
Hopes, dreams…
Now I have someone I can
Share this all.

That's a perfect reflection about love. That life is not perfect but it's perfectly alright because at last you have someone so special to share it with. *adores*

Times are over
when my soul was shattered,
Times are over
when I hungered
but no one cared.

Zeke's relief is so intense and palpable in these phrases. It lets us know how just alone and scared he's felt in the past.

I’m crawling into his
skin, into his soul…
into his life.
He did this to me a long time ago.

That feeling of wanting to dissolve completely into the being of another person is another kind of mine *swoon*

He wants me …
Completely me..
Only me…
I feel … alive.

Just full of beautiful phrases and rhythms, like

His touch is light
when I grow weak

I could quote them all. This is a real portrait of emotions, a very intense, dependent kind of love - my favorite kind!

Julchen, this is vivid, sensual and very powerful. You've hit a vein with these poems, straight to the heart!

*kisses*

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Sweeeetie! I'm overwhelmed. You're my soulsister, aren't you? You're reading my thoughts, LOL. I don't know how to start to thank you *clings to you and twirls you around*
Words like yours are the greatest award a writer can get! I'm soooo very happy, I'll go to bed with a smile on my face, with a huuuuuge smile on my face. *wipes away happy tears*
I'm sure Casey and Zeke would love you, too. Who could resist?

I'm so gald you like the poems, I'm always nervous, so very nervous that they are not good enough. But now ... nervousness blown to the wind... for this time :-)

Love you, hon.
Julchen