I missed telstar's birthday

[julchen11]

How could this happen ??? 
Happy belated birthday my dear 

telstar109

I hope your day was great and full of love and joy. 



Your wishes are my wishes for YOU!


This one is for you, my dear. 

Title: Calling
Pairing: F/S
Rating: PG

 

I love dawn.

Being up early

Breathing in fresh air

Breathing in the smell of

Lavender and roses…

 

Thinking of Frodo

My beautiful Master.

He’s so very quiet these days

Self-absorbed

Unmoving…

Sad…

 

I watched him

the other day

My heart cries for him.

His eyes are sparkling

when he looks at me

but

there are crinkles at the edge

of his eyes

I’ve never seen before.

 

Why can’t you just lean

back, Frodo…

and enjoy the little wonder

of our young love?

 

Deep peace of the shining stars

Deep peace of the flowing air

If it would be possible

I would give it to you…

 

I don’t know if I can take it

when you leave me…

and leave me you will…

 

because

 

The Sea is calling…

 

for you.

And you'll go
where I can't follow. 


Lots of love and big tight hugs ,
Julchen 

Comments

[lijahlover.livejournal.com]

The sea is calling for you And you'll go where I can't follow.

That's so wondeful just wonderful writing.

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Awww, you're such a dear, sweetie! Thank YOU!

[addie71.livejournal.com]

Poor Sam. How hard for him to just watch Frodo fade further and further from him until he left. *weeps*

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

But we know their time will come, don't we? *hugs you very long and very gently*

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Awww, thank you so much, little one! I'm so glad you like it :-)
You'll translate it to romanian? Wow.

[telstar-gold.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for this, Julchen, it's beautiful! I especially like this bit: Why can’t you just lean back, Frodo… and enjoy the little wonder of our young love? *sniff* This is a wonderful gift. *hugs you*

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

I'm sooooo glad you like it, birthday girl. I hope your day was wonderful, you deserve all the very best, my dear!
*offers shoulder to lean on and whipes your tears away*

[mews1945.livejournal.com]

It's simply lovely, Juls.

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

*blows zillions of kisses to you*
Thank you, mewsie!

[frolijah-fan-54.livejournal.com]

So loving and poignant - if only it could have been that easy for Frodo to recover and stay in the Shire with his Sam - *hugs*

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

You say it - if only ...
Thank you, darling!
*hugs back*

[frodosweetstuff.livejournal.com]

Oh nooooooooo. *sobs* This is sooo sad. It's terrible that Sam knows what is going to happen and can't do a thing about it!

Thank you, sweetie, this was lovely! *hugs*

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Don't be sad, my dear Steff. We KNOW they'll be together again ...
Thank you, sweetie!
*hugs and snuggles closer*

[withywindle01.livejournal.com]

Very lovley and very sad!

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Thank you, my dear.
*leans on you*

[aliensouldream.livejournal.com]

Why can’t you just lean
back, Frodo…
and enjoy the little wonder
of our young love?

Poor Sam! His frustration and sadness is so heartbreaking. I see them in the garden, Sam doing everything he can to comfort and distract his beloved.

Thank you, Julchen. What a lovely gift for telstar109, delicate but powerful too.

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

Thank you, my dear, for your lovingly words.
*snuggles closer*

[slender-sail.livejournal.com]

Hi - I tried to write you an email but the server won't let me. Never mind that problem I had, I can't burden you with it.

About this poem? It's beautiful, but there's a little problem with applying the same old categories. I'll explain:

I don't think there is something I loathe more than the question "Why can you not just enjoy it" - it speaks of total lack of understanding from the lover (who appears selfish), and I know Sam would understand. At least a little. He's at least not selfish. This questioning is only found between lovers who do not share a deep connection, but Frodo and Sam share such a connection, Sam has been there and *knows* why Frodo "cannot lean back". Their love is not something set apart from their trials - they grew *together*. Perhaps this questioning is the first sign that they are de-phazed somehow, they're in a moment of alienation from each other; but what I'm trying to say is that love itself will find you even when you are down, and will not expect you to be joyful and go back to what was before. It will accept to grow with you and follow you wherever, and it will trust that even if you act differently, it's still you inside and you don't need to pretend to be happy.

Deep peace of the shining stars/Deep peace of the flowing air/If it would be possible/I would give it to you…

It *is* possible, he always gives it in such a way. That's why it's said that true lovers have heaven (Valinor represents Nature). Even if Frodo becomes "self-absorbed" as you wrote here, it doesn't mean far away from Sam, because like I said, their connection is shared within, so no matter how far inside one goes, the other is there too.

But perhaps they are yet to learn that...