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shoesparks May this day be very special as special as you are.
Thank you for your friendship and love.
That I found my way to this wonderful land - it's your fault, sweetie.
May the coming year be full of love and happiness, sun and joy, Zeke, Casey and hobbitlove!
You deserve all the very best.
Love and kisses,
Julchen
This little something is for you, I hope you'll like it a little bit.
Title: "Stay"
Characters: C/Z
Rating: PG
I went running again,
first through a path in the close by forest,
then past Herrington High
and out to the point
where the sea winds are
the most
cutting.
I wanted to feel
pain.
On my face, too.
The air was cold -
I felt like
calling out
over the sea
as it rolls in –
wave after wave –
touching land, stones,
rocks,
tucking under –
gone.
Haunting.
Torturing.
Calling.
I wanted to shout
anger, fear, rage, frustration
loneliness…
I had to confront myself
in the darkness
in the cold.
Here.
Where no one would hear
me.
Do people hear me at all?
It seems like no one
listens.
No one ever listened.
To me.
I AM human.
I HAVE feelings.
But…
No. One. Cares.
There was nothing between me
and the dark.
It would have been so easy to
stop.
The Waves.
The Sea.
Calling … calling… calling…
ME!
I know my own true face.
I don’t like it.
I’m not strong.
I want let go sometimes.
Only one time.
This time.
Now.
Then there it was
a whisper of fear –
a whisper that sounded
like
my name.
“Zeke… Don’t… Please… Zeke…”
The whispering voice turned
into murmurs,
became louder,
clearer.
Covering my ears with my hands
it didn’t stop.
“Zeke… Zeke… Zeke…”
Opening my eyes
I saw
blue eyes.
Warm blue eyes.
They told me
what I so wanted to hear
“Stay.”
He chose the moment
to close the distance
between me
and the world.
Between us.
Pressed tight to him
he stroke my back
“Don’t, Zeke… Please…”
How did he know?
Why was he here?
“Don’t hate yourself
for who you are…”
My heart was pounding –
Maybe there was something
Waiting for me…
Someone, too?
Things changed…
All because of few words?
“Stay, Zeke…”
All because of
Casey Connor?
He leaned on me.
There was no need to ask
‘How did you know?
Why have you come?’
He answered before I
could say anything.
“Because I care, Zeke…”
About me?
“Yes. About you.”
We kept quiet
listening to the sea
which wasn’t demanding
Anymore.
I realized I was holding him, too.
Close.
Tight.
I knew what to do
when he looked at me.
Tears were falling –
like rainbow pearls…
Loneliness doesn’t have
to exist anymore. Not
with him
by my side.
“I’ll stay, my friend..."
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Date: 2009-07-25 12:22 pm (UTC)From:Such a tender tale. Thanks for sharing xx
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Date: 2009-07-28 09:12 pm (UTC)From:*snuggles closer*
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Date: 2009-07-25 01:56 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-07-28 09:12 pm (UTC)From:You made me smile and smile and smile.
Goodness, your icon is g.o.r.g.e.o.u.s!!!
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Date: 2009-07-28 09:29 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-07-25 03:10 pm (UTC)From:This is just so beautiful and so poignant, hon.
You wrote a so intense poem here!
♥
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Date: 2009-07-28 09:13 pm (UTC)From:Thank you very much for your wonderful words!
*holds you close*
What a beautiful icon!
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Date: 2009-07-29 08:45 am (UTC)From:And why wouldn't I tell you how much I feel good and happy while reading your poems?^^
*holds you tight*
I'm sooo a pink girl! ;)
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Date: 2009-07-25 03:50 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-07-28 09:14 pm (UTC)From:*hugs and cuddles*
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Date: 2009-07-25 04:23 pm (UTC)From:He chose the moment
to close the distance
between me
and the world.
I think that's what love does for us, it anchors us to the world. Your poem illustrates that beautifully. Thank you for saving Zeke!
*hugs so tight*
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Date: 2009-07-28 09:16 pm (UTC)From:Love is always waiting, sometimes it's just around the corner -just waiting for us.
"It anchors us to the world."
I couldn't have said it better.
Thanks a lot for your wonderful words, darling!
Love and kisses,
Julchen
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Date: 2009-07-25 04:43 pm (UTC)From:*huggles*
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Date: 2009-07-28 09:17 pm (UTC)From:*snuggles closer*
Thank you so very much...
Date: 2009-07-25 09:25 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2009-07-26 12:14 am (UTC)From:Happy birthday, Shoesparks
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Date: 2009-07-26 04:52 pm (UTC)From: (Anonymous)Sometime words need to be seen...
Re: Thank you so very much...
Date: 2009-07-26 04:35 am (UTC)From:The picture is simply gorgeous.
Thanks, my Shoe.
*hugs you close*
Re: Thank you so very much...
Date: 2009-07-26 04:55 pm (UTC)From: (Anonymous)*hugs you close*
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Date: 2009-07-26 12:15 am (UTC)From:Zeke is so lost - but Casey comes to rescue him with all his love.
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Date: 2009-07-28 09:18 pm (UTC)From:Love,
Julchen
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Date: 2009-07-26 06:09 pm (UTC)From:*hugs you and Shoe*
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Date: 2009-07-28 09:19 pm (UTC)From:You made me smile from ear to ear :-))
*hugs you madly*